Yay! 51st post!

It took me a while to realize. This is the first time I am completely out of my comfort zone. That's why I am feeling the mixtures of emotions. Biotechnology conference/competition? It's my comfort zone. Business plan competition where people talked about sustainability and environment carrying capacity? It's still my comfort zone! But banking and finance..now that's something different.
So it was a risky decision. But they say high risk, high return. So, I'm waiting for that high return and I'm not givin' up. :-D

One of the things Oprah know for sure

So frankly speaking, in the last couple of months I lost confidence of myself. Imagine this, having 6 months full of adventure and emotional roller coaster, getting out feeling fabulous and all excited (I'm talking about the final 6 months of my MBA). I was full of idealism that I can do something great and make a difference. And then I entered a whole new world. Banking. Something I know zero about. Not to mention cultural differences. Most of the people in this business are, or at least they think they are, the socialite of Jakarta. They have parties and speak of luxury products. It is so not me.

And worst of all, when I want to talk to anyone about my excitement, I am afraid that I will appear cocky, despite the fact that I was surrounded by arrogant people. So as if I was depleted from my past achievements while I am still struggling to achieve something new in the present.
And of course, I finally turn to Oprah. She is truly a source of inspiration and encouragement for women. And I found this article.

So now I try to say to myself. So what if I am still learning? So what if currently I sucks in what I'm doing? But I'm willing to learn and I will strive. I have proven it in the past. I will strive. And I will come out more alive than before. Besides, the pressure is not that high. And now the new wave of slow life is here. So just take whatever in front of me, sip it slowly.